woke up to realize its just a dream.
i enjoy the times i spent with you. but why are all the sweetest moment just a dream.
each time i dream of you, the feelings comes back.
each time i wake up from a dream of you, i'll think back the past.
how i thought of you when we first met. how much you've changed.
think back about the past when you tell me a little about your past during lessons.
the moment when you told me you know how to cook hainanese chicken rice and said you'll let me try your cooking one day.
the moment when you held my arm when you're tired to run during the sw lessons.
the moment when i wipe the flour off your face during a birthday bash.
the moment when you drag me up to take a picture with you knowing i'm merely pretending not wanting to take picture during the chalet.
the moment when you took another picture with me in the campus studio with your cam corder when the one we took at the chalet didn't make it.
all the moments... and i thought. why didn't i do what he did to court you. since you already know i like you. everyone did. and regret walking off the bus stop at serangoon where you drop off and transfer a 2nd bus to your house just to stop people from saying i'm trying to spend more time with you when thats what i did all the time.
each time i dream of you. i wish i never wakes up. each time i wakes up after that. i think of all these things from the past.
its been so long. i thought after you went into a relationship with him, the feelings will fade.
i thought after our friend tell me you have a baby with him. i'll get back to reality.
it just seems to cycle. once this feelign fades away. i hope i'll never dream of you anymore.
we're the best of friends. i'm happy.
i was the happiest man on earth when you told me, during your pregnancy, you wanted to let me know, you miss me as a friend.
i know about your difficulty. its ok. that few words is enough. atleast i'm still around in your mind.
but i guess i just shouldn't see you face to face anymore. i was never emotional. but i don't understand why.
why each time i see you, the feelings comes back. so. lets not meet. since you're always busy anyway. we probably wouldn't have chances to meet anymore. so i'll just hope this feelings fades away as usual.... and never dream of you again.